Incomplete and Insecure
“I haven’t finished a thing since I started my life and I don’t feel much like starting now.”
-The Avett Brothers
I And Love And You
My god are these dudes awesome! I love how natural their voices… sound and how amazingly mind-blowing their harmonies are. Oh, and they also have awesome lyrics. I am ashamed to say that I had never heard of them until last year with this album. But I do plan on going back and listening to all their albums and loving the shit out of them.
I feel really close to this quote because it is basically what I do, not finish things (creative things). I still have a painting that has been sitting halfway done for about 2 or 3 months, a bunch of songs that I’ve left incomplete or that end abruptly because I didn’t wanted to spend any more time with them, a lot of personal projects that have never came through or that I have stopped caring about, and also a lot of books that I’ve read only halfway through (I do plan on finishing most of them, it’s just that usually more interesting books come up while I’m reading them). Now that I think about it, maybe I should make “finish shit” one of my many new year’s resolutions. Even better, “finish shit I’ve already started”. Sometimes I won’t even finish listening to a record when I intend to listen to it all the way through, and not because I don’t have the time or I have to do something else, but because it bores me and I go and listen to something else. I even have relationships that I haven’t reached my intentions with. Especially with women, I want to be with someone but usually after some time I get bored, and, yes, I just shun them out. Stop talking to them. Unless they’re special, then it’s different.
I know that I’m taking this very literally, but sometimes that’s what it is. Maybe sometimes we shouldn’t look in between lines (I tend to do that a lot), maybe sometimes we should just take things as they are.
Last night was one of the only times that I’ve felt bad for not listening to highly successful commercial music (because I do listen to commercial music, some of it, depending on what “commercial” means). But I don’t wanna talk about it.
