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“Sad is for the lonely”

-Phoenix
Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix

At least that’s what I think the song says. I was told that it actually goes like “Deciders for the lonely”, but that sounds stupid, doesn’t make sense within the context of the song, and it doesn’t help my blog. So we’ll go with “Sad”. Oh, and they’re gonna be here in Mexico next week. Actually they’re gonna be playing 2 hours away from this shitty city, but I won’t be able to go because I have an exam the next day. I could make it, but whatever. I know that’s the stupid attitude a boring person would take in this situation, but I honestly don’t care enough for Phoenix, now if it was motherfucking My Morning Jacket I would go even if I had a fucking final the next day. Why? Because at the end of my life, I would not remember that time where I failed or passed a class, I would remember the time I drove for hours and slept outside a venue just to watch motherfucking Jim James play Steam Engine.
Actually, that is a very good way of viewing things. From now on every time I take a big decision I’ll make sure to ask myself Which one of these things would I remember at the end of my life?. So why not go to the Phoenix show? Maybe I should. But it’s too late anyway, there’s not tickets available anymore and like I said, I don’t think I care enough for them, I doubt they are very good live.

This made me think, how I usually like to get people involved in the music that I like. Because, I like weird music, or, music that nobody listens to, especially in this ignorant country. I like to get people to like my music, not only because that would support the bands that nobody is listening to, but also because when they come give a concert close by (because nobody comes to this stupid city, except for the Misfits and that was a very weird one time occasion) I’ll have someone to go with and that way I won’t look like the narcissistic asshole that I can be sometimes. I’m lucky because I have some friends that can get into some really weird shit. I have a friend that likes obscure psychedelic music along with some indie pop. Then I have a friend that likes metal and all kinds of genres that end with -core. I also have a friend that likes all kinds of music, without getting too deep into them, so I can basically just tell him to listen to whatever band my other 2 friends won’t like and he’ll appreciate it. Actually, all of them are some of my best friends. I guess it just goes to show how much of a connection people can make through music.

So, sad is for the lonely. Not quite. Some of my best times have been while I’m alone. And then some of them have been with the company of others. Actually, most of them have been with someone else, but I do enjoy my alone time a lot. Every weekend night is another decision, to go out or to stay home. I usually have people who want me to go out with them, I don’t know why. Still, most of the time I go out with the same people, maybe because that’s where I feel comfortable. Usually I have to decide what I want to do, stay at home playing guitar, watching movies, reading or writing, or go out and meet a bunch of uninteresting strangers (if I’m lucky). I’ve been balancing it out lately, Fridays I go out and Saturdays I stay home, unless I really don’t feel like doing either. Right now I can’t finish writing this since I guess I’m heading out, even though I wasn’t really planning to.