I’m Wide Awake, It’s Morning
“What is simple in the moonlight by the morning never is…”
-Conor Oberst
Bright Eyes, I’m Wide Awake, It’s Morning
No, I don’t like Conor Oberst that much. He’s one of my favorite persons on earth, but I’m not obsessed with him or his work. It’s just that it’s… hard to find someone who writes like he does. He has a very personal way to put things, it makes it easier to relate to. I could put up a lot of Conor’s quotes that I’ve felt related to at some point. Now, I’m Wide Awake, might be one of my favorite albums. There’s just this feeling to it, warm and simple. Sad and honest. Raw. But it never gets boring, not for a second. And there’s no irrelevant lines, everything he says has a meaning and a purpose. It’s a perfect balance between lyrical value and music. Few artists can put up so much focus into one album, to keep the melody up while you’re singing about the saddest moment.
And this song, Lua, has always been my least favorite in the album, it’s too sad. Too slow, it’s just too sad. But it does bring up some memories. Particularly, walking home in the rain at 3 AM while already being 2 hours behind my curfew. It went like this, after a night of party hoping we ended up on this girl’s house, a little drunk and a little bored, I don’t really remember why. I remember I was in a very stupid mood, probably because of the alcohol, so I was being entertained with the slightest stupidity. After a while I noticed that it was very late, and as usual I didn’t have my car (don’t drink and drive, seriously, that’s why I never take my car out on weekend’s nights), so I asked the friend who was supposed to give me a ride home if he was leaving soon, he said no, but if I wanted to he could take me home and then return. I told him it was fine, that I would take a cab. He insisted, but I told him it was fine. I walked outside and tried stopping a cab, but there weren’t a lot of cabs at that hour and the ones who were on night shift were already occupied. I figured I’d walk towards home and catch a cab on the way home, I’d save some money anyway. Well, it was about an hour long walk to get to my house, and I couldn’t find a god damn taxi in that whole hour. I had my music player, so I was fine, I like walking, but I was expected to be home hours earlier. My phone ran out of battery so I couldn’t call home, and all of a sudden, it started raining. I don’t even remember it being cloudy.
I remembered the lyrics “I know that it is freezing, but I think we’ll have to walk, I keep waving at the taxis, they keep turning their lights off”, and I automatically looked for that song. It was an emotive moment, I still get those flashbacks whenever I play that song. I like walking because it makes you think a lot, it makes you analyze what’s been going on and it’s like a time for reflection. Eventually, all I thought off that night, I had completely forgotten about the next morning. The night has this way of making you stupid, it shines a different light on things, it makes it weird and, in a way, magical. What happens late in the night is like it happened in a different dimension. Sometimes you say, do or act a certain way in the night just to realize the next morning how stupid it was, and it’s not because of the alcohol. It’s weird how the night makes things change, I had experienced it before but I could never define it until I heard this song. That’s probably why I like the night so much.
Last night my cousin asked me to cover for him as he went to some party. I obviously did it, but he didn’t come back home to sleep. I’m fine with that, I would have probably done it too if I was in that situation, but when I called him in the morning and asked if he was okay, he lied to me and said that he did come back home. I didn’t ask him if he did, he just acted like he did, and it was very obvious that he wanted me to think that. I know he didn’t. I don’t get why he lied. I mean, I’ve already covered his lie one time, why wouldn’t I do it a second time? It’s not like I’m judging.
Well, I’m off to listen to some more I’m Wide Awake in this Valentine’s. Maybe I’ll mix things up and even throw in some Heatbreaker.
Happy day, everyone.
